Day35

I wake up in the morning but today much earlier because there is a one day adventures camp for us. At first because is so near to our APPG TT2 so I hope today will rain so that I can study at dorm but later after thinking much I realise staying at the dorm will only make me think of more stuffs like missing my parents so I decided to enjoy this camp. We were suppose to meet at 8am but ended up only Hweeping’s group and I reached only, all the others were late. In the end, everyone reached at around 830am and the whole camp begins, we were all divided into groups including the other groups from other modules. This is the time where I start to interact with them more and try to know them. This whole morning we had lots of fun together though I am in a group of not much ECE people but I enjoy myself in the camp. In the afternoon, we brought some of the students to one of our canteen. Finally, I have the mood to eat something and I eat a lot today. We sit quite close to the other groups of student and we did chit chat. Then later, they all went to our dorm and see, they told us our dorm is really like a hotel. One of the students even tell me that the teacher was actually so smart asked them to go our school near to the end of the programme not at the beginning of the programme therefore they will not compare and complain until they get use to it then they realise the living condition as compare to us is lousier. I try the ice cream here today, the China ice cream taste the same as Singapore but is cheaper over here. I try the China brand ice cream called YILI, it taste nice but less thicker flavouring than the normal Wall ice cream we eat. We eat ice cream because today we heard that our TT2 is postpone to another day after the school reopen, we were all so happy that we can finally relax a bit more. During the programme got many high elements that I never tried before all I did try here. The moral of this programme is to test your trust within your groups, willingness to take initiative and willingness to take risks. That is what a leader is requires to do. During the evening after the programme we took lots of photos and I love Hweeping’s group. They are people who work hard at the beginning and also play hard but after everything. I think that is why their parents trust them so much. Lastly, I miss my daddy and today is his birthday. Daddy I love you! Left with 7 days I will be back to Singapore!

Day34

Today, I wake up in the morning I started crying for my new day. To me life here is torturing and sad because I missed my family and boyfriend really much that I think if the time continue and the day past so slow I will turn mad. I keep studying to numb myself not to think of them that much but my emotion cannot be controlled. What should I do for today to kill my time without crying and missing them? I prefer to be in Singapore really way more than here do. I ever thought that whether I can ask teacher to go home earlier. I cannot be crying every day right? To me though I am counting down to the day but it seems like is so slow that I cannot wait. This morning I try to study with Sasi and Hweeping. I realise that not only me who miss home so much that I cry but Sasi do. She and me, we kind of regretted coming here. We do ask ourselves why we come here. Today, I really have a battle with my emotion I tried to controlled but failed. Today, I decided to go Tom house to visit; the main reason is to let time past faster followed learning of their cultures. I called my mum today and I really cannot control my tears I cried in the phone, I know my mum is heartache but she just keep telling me that I must be strong, hold on, must “Jia You” because I only left with 8 days and we let you go this trip to train you to be independent. You know to me all these words are so encouraging that I cry even louder and louder. Sasi was beside me and comforting me to calm down so I can tell my mum about the trip to Tom’s house. I must really thanks Sasi and Sasi must hold on like my mum and your mum said is 8 days more. I know Hweeping also missed her parents a lot but she chose to keep inside. Tomorrow is my dad birthday I do not know whether I will cry but I will try my best to control my emotion so he will not worry. I love you Mummy! Daddy I love you too! Left with 8 more days and I will be back to Singapore. The day finally past!

Day33

Today I wake up earlier than yesterday, in the morning I am thinking what should I do to improve on my mini project and how to do some of the questions in the TT2 practice paper? Therefore, I wake up earlier hopefully I will not keep thinking about it in the morning if I continue to sleep. This is China no matter how much I try not to think of my family I will still think of them, I really miss them a lot. I keep telling myself time will pass faster but no matter what I just think that time goes so slowly. Now I finally understand why people said going to over sea to study is so tedious and hard. This trip only a month I have already felt that so much of missing them. What I used to see when I look outside the window is totally a different one now. This whole afternoon I did not do much just doing so house chores, packing of my own luggage and doing the group report. I realise I brought so much clothes here that I never wear next time I think I will not be bringing so much clothes over sea. Today, Sasi make me feel like she is a bit stress so she went out with Hwee Ping and group today hope she will be fine soon. At night, I am going to chat with my family because I miss them so much, through this trip I finally know how important to me is my parents. Yeah! Left with 9 more days and I am going back to Singapore. Daddy and Mummy I miss you all.

Day32

I am going to relax this Saturday however, in the morning I still do some of the IS homework like group report and individual report. I have very hardworking dorm mates like Hwee Ping and Sasi they work very hard so that they can play at the end of this trip. I really envy their persistent and determination to do finish their tasks first because they spend the whole day in the dorm. This morning after talking to my brothers I think I miss them a lot till I cannot control my tears, I am wondering how long will 10 days take? Is it fast or slow? After doing some of the homework, approximately 1 plus in the afternoon, I went out with my group, Yongxin and Wenhao. We just take a bus to the Si Ji Guang Chang that Jayden said, so we took 901 from opposite the bus stop we always took to Lu Xiang, we did not know the exact place so when someone said we reached the destination, and we just dropped there. Later, we realise that Si Ji Guang Chang is actually something like a park for outdoor activities, such a cold day how do we have mood to play outdoor activities? Then, we just continue to walk to till we saw a shopping centre called Jiang Xia something but is a very old supermarket so we decided to ask people where is the nearest shopping centre and they said we need to take a minivan to go there which cost us about RMB5 per person. After that we went down to asked the uncle we want to go Xing Xin Lu is how much? He replied just a dollar a person. Is it the person we ask just now in the shopping mall want to help the minivan uncle to earn money? We reached a place with a very big KFC brand on; we all said here at least got KFC to eat. In the end, we did go to KFC but just to wait for Benson to blurt his hair and to eat Chocolate Sundae ice-cream. On the way to the hair cutting shop, we eat lots of cakes and muffins because that street is famous for its cupcakes and muffin. We came across a shop selling a bread taste like donuts but inside got red bean paste, it taste delicious then follow by small cakes with honey on it, we order 1 Jin is like RMB8 when the person pour the cakes into the bag we then realise is too much. At night, we went to Hu Xuan again and we had our dinner there as usual and shopping. Overall I realise that actually going out, the time pass faster than staying at dorm alone. Anyway I will never forget to count the number of days I am going to go back to Singapore. 10 more days and I will be back to Singapore! I miss my daddy, mummy, brothers and boyfriend.

Day31

Yeah! Time is getting nearer to the day I am returning to Singapore. This morning we have APPG lesson but is a simpler one is to check our theory paper 1 and to fully understand from Chapter 1 to 4. I feel tired this morning and do not feel like moving around because is like going to do the same thing again but I know that is for our own good as we are having a final theory test 2 soon on Wednesday. I have got 81 marks for TT1, I am happy with it that is mean the effort I use to study did not go to waste. After the lesson from today afternoon till Monday afternoon then I will have lesson. This is great! Therefore, I will have more time to do my IS and to study the TT2. Additionally, more time for me and Yongxin to go shopping. This afternoon, Yongxin and friends went out today but as I always said I must finish my works and study before going out do I will not feel that I have got something have not finish then at the end rushing for it, is not that I am nerd but I do things in that way. So Jayden I am not a nerd okay! Anyway I stay back at dorm to my Individual Project and chat with my siblings because I miss them a lot. After talking to them I feel that I miss them a lot more. However, to be frank I miss my boyfriend a lot is just a reality when you are over sea you often miss someone more than the others. Obviously, I miss my mum and dad the most, and my dad is going to have his birthday when I am not in Singapore I really miss him, because every of his birthdays I will always be around and give him a kiss. Daddy Happy Birthday and I miss you so much hope you will have a great health and will not get sick so easily. I am going to study now hope at the end of today I can understand APPG. Left with 11 days and I am going to go back to Singapore! I will hold on!

Day30

I wake up early in the morning at 645, it really make me mistook that I wake up too early because usually I wake up at 715 for APPG lesson. These few days, we are rushing for IS after finishing APPG. This morning, we did an evaluation form on this trip about how we feel. I came across these few questions. Do you think this trip worth for recommending? Two months is it enough? I will recommend this trip to many friends only if they can cope with stress better than I do and also only many of your friends are joining this trip. This is a trip that requires many good friends to be around because when you feel stress and pressure they will be around and that you can go shopping with them. But like friends you just know you cannot speak out your thoughts as a friend you are close to. This is reality. Two months is not enough for studies but too much if it is for relaxing over here. Later, we have our IS lesson today we learn about the Taoism, I think compare to the Confucianism, the Taoism not as practical as the Confucianism. They study on the nature but in Singapore this is not too practical. In this busy city like Singapore I think we apply the thoughts of Confucianism more that looking and thinking what the nature thinks. I discover that China people do not believe in other religious but in themselves however in Singapore we have many different religious and almost every one of us believe in one like me I am a Christian. In the afternoon, we have IS lesson again, is tiring to have the same lesson for the whole day. However, I think that the noon time one is more interesting because of the video clips. In Singapore, we adopt some of the ideas when someone is getting married like sending of betrothal gifts and choosing of auspicious date but we did do much stuff according to the Chinese cultures like installing of beds, what we must put in the newlywed couples room, through this lesson we know that. After the lesson, I went back to dorm, later went to gym and study APPG test. I hope times can pass faster so that I can return to Singapore to enjoy the food now. Yeah! Left with 12 days more we will be back to Singapore, our homeland.

Day29

Yeah! Another day has past, to me now time like running slow. I hope I can go home as soon as possible. Life is getting more stress here because is getting to the end of many things, test, mini project, and journal and IS report. Today morning we have our China History lesson for IS, the teacher taught us lots of interesting stories in the lesson like the Mong Mother moved house to three different cause Mencius is a boy who love to learn a lot and when he go different place to stay he tend to learn different things but the first two place he went he learn stuffs that her Mum think is no need for his future, at last they moved to a place beside the school that is where Mencius study and become a scholar. Reading so many stories about Mencius and his mum, I realise his mum play an important part in his mum that is why we said your parents will do the best for you. This trip make m learn that without parents especially my mum I will not have learn so much in my life and will not know what is right and wrong. On my way back to dorm after the APPG lesson, I asked people whether they will miss Singapore or not, one of them said no, Singapore more stress than here do, at that moment I was asking myself am I too harsh to myself? But if you feel stress here no one around you then what can you do? But the workload here is more than that when we are in Singapore, don’t they feel stress? I keep asking myself am I too negative? My answer is no, I really feel stress and I miss everyone in Singapore. I cannot because of coming here, then study less. We keep changing our timetable but lucky everything ending soon and I can be more relax after everything, hopefully I will not cry anymore because of school work over here. Lastly, 13 more days more, I am going to be back to Singapore! So jia you to myself I can get over this tough period!